My Race

As the pain in my soul,

Intensifies and grows.

Know in reality,

Because I'm letting go.

Letting go of the hurts,

Guiltiness shame and fears.

I am taking back all,

My lost and stolen years.

No it's never easy,

Staring truth in the face.

Specially by your side,

The whole essential race.

This race is eternal,

Far far from being done.

However I accept,

It is MY RACE to run!

Right or Wrong

Yesterday has come and gone,

Tomorrow already here.

Looked to You to guide my steps,

I realized there was fear.

Nervous thoughts run through my head,

Enemies want me to doubt.

Self-destruction, worry, pain,

Maybe God won't bring me out.

Dark and gloomy was my life,

I would never not be sad.

Believed things would never change,

This would be all that I had.

Many tears on this journey,

Easy to no longer fight.

I learned must follow my heart,

My mind was where he stole light.

Today knowing wasn't me,

A better plan all along.

The past aided to help grow,

It was never right or wrong.

Me and You

Love is more than a feeling,

Decisions made in the heart.

When you are truly in love,

Two beings should never part.

It's an eternal concept,

Sometimes hard to comprehend.

When you find it hold on tight,

Then it never has to end.

Phenomenon about Love,

High ups conversely low downs.

Many have loved also lost,

Difficult sticking around.

I have loved and then I lost,

I am certain you have too.

Yet had we not lost those loves,

There would be no Me and You.

Wait and See

Someone's Looking

Look deep in my eye,

Tell me what you see.

Are you viewing the,

Pain or misery?

Eyes can be windows,

Into our soul.

If you see sorrow,

You're seeing my whole.

We were not promised,

That life would be fair.

Knowledge suffering,

I'm strong and still here.

Ups downs heartache loss,

Yet still I am sane.

Further strength and grace,

So I can remain.

Far from perfection,

I have my own view.

Taking all we get,

Find ways to pursue.

Accomplishing which,

We are birthed to give.

During good and bad,

Created to live.

Some may disagree,

Or believe not true.

That's fine with me for,

All have things to do.

My gift is to love,

Not judge wrong or right.

Despite obstacles,

Keep standing and fight.

This is my battle,

Chosen just for me.

Being a winner,

Sit back wait and see.

Only Way To Go

I am a woman,
Who was born to think.

Being in this mind,

Seeking the missed link.

A quest for my peace,
Doing everyday.
Waiting for release,

Finding better way.

Troubles will all go,
Taking care of me.
Don't have any time,

I need to be free.

Loving my whole self,
Being all I am.
Introspectively,

I now give a damn.

Experience bliss,
Risking with my heart.
Living presently,

Brand new and fresh start.

I am so special,
My head is held high.
I can walk away,

Finally say bye.

Lots of work to do,
So much more to see.
Not invisible,

For I've been set free.

Yes I'm a woman,
Who learned and does know.
Pleasing myself first,

Only way to go.

Patient & Free

Patience being a virtue,

I definitely agree.

Quality I've acquired,

Blessed with I'm finally free.

Free to make my decisions,

Whether turns out wrong or right.

Free to live life as I so choose,

Each day through every night.

My faith taught me the patience,

That I am able to stand.

Everyday I thank my God,

Kept me in a loving hand.

Life's not meant to be easy,

Proof is seen everyday.

Struggle and pain more like it,

Thus only God guides my way.

Then and Now

Heart ♡ Warrior
♡ My Ker Bear ♡

Remember how my heart smiled,

Just the very thought of you.

There was not a rainy day,

The skies always brighter blue.

Simply hearing sound of your voice,

Better than any sunshine.

Believing impossible,

Knew you were finally mine.

Now a grey sky hovering,

Like storms that will never end.

Evil is such a liar,

And soul had to comprehend.

This struggle shall pass along,

Like many of those before.

My strength is in my Savior,

I don't need you anymore.

My First Struggle

Seems love with pain,

Goes hand in hand.

Formulating,

Don't understand.

Oddness of love,

Somewhat like pain.

Love not managed,

Does not remain.

Pain felt by love,

Heart cut open.

While love repairs,

Love had broken.

Tangible way,

Painfully mends.

Love that is true,

Still may have ends.

One's heart will know,

Hard to release.

Once love's given,

Harder to cease.

Intricate mind,

Hurtful when bleed.

Peculiar yes,

Love's strange indeed.

Pure and fragile,

Safe from mom's womb.

Took it's first beat,

In warm loved tomb.

Human birth,

Troubled snuggle.

Survived that pain,

My first struggle.